I just understand anything anymore. I feel so frustrated with everything this year. I thought it was the fact college applications were due and the stress of that makes me want to blow my head off with a Benelli Shotgun (I wonder if where you can get one.) Obviously I was wrong. I absolutely hate my senior year so far and I have no faith left in me anymore to make me believe things will look up sooner or later. Its not even the about the school work. Its everything else that I dislike so much. I am almost 100% sure that I'll get into SF State. 100%. And when that happens I'm going to cry for joy mostly. Of course I'll miss mostly everyone (everyone is 90% annie) but it feels like I need a new start. Secretly, I dont want to be Kristen's roommate. I honestly wish I could find someone that I actually like as a person. Alas, It's most likely a pipe dream (whatever that means.) All this drama shit is just making me go insane because I'm not used to it. I liked it the way it was before and nothing is ever going to make it go back to the way it was. The only people that I really can complain to are people that dont really know the situation and are there just to listen. School work is a savior. I just love it. So much. Deadlines for journalism are a joke and all I do is slack off until last minute. Its weird that I tend to work better when theres panic and pressure to finish. Isnt that odd?
New years resolution: Learn to let go and to stop trying so hard.
also I really need to start my up senior project again.
- Music:Piegon Song by Patrick Wolf